The Noteworthies

all of sudden i feel so mellow today.. some old stuff were creeping out into the open and i am just to exhausted to keep it bottled up anymore.. where oh where did it go wrong? i am not one to keep being friends with an ex-flame.. but we were never ‘anything’, never an ‘item’ to friggin begin with..? will deleting me from his life erase the memory..?

this is not me second guessing my decision, my choice made years back.. i am never happier than the times i spent with abang.. he is indeed my better half.. there’s up and there’s down, but there is always love.

a terrific friend is now a terrible past.. just magnifies the fact that i suck at friendship.. it will almost always sink, no matter what.. maybe i am doomed to have fair-weather friends and no friends for a shoulder to cry on. i am not complaining, i am just wondering why..? and the fact that will it be fair to abg if i were to cry and cry and cry my heart out on his shoulder alone?

blargh!! aku hidup dalam blur!!

ok.. we went to Genting.. yayy.. big hurray.. but came down with a monster headache.. must be the altitude.. poor abg came down with the whole package.. headache.. flu.. cough.. poor baby.. he had to go to work today.. biasalah, rindu sangat ngan chin apek kaki simen sebab kena langgar forklift tu that he just has to go to work.. basically to see how much damage that was done by the said apek.. haha, and i think I was the one with control issues..

that being said.. i’ve been organizing like mad for the shoot (and yet, here i am typing a blog entry.. haha) and personally, i see the whole thing falling into places.. i am trying to minimize outside risks but as for the internal risks.. well.. those are looming, i am sure.. i’ll just deal with those when we get there..

for the time being, i am still in my vacation/holiday mode.. kinda hard to shake it off but have to anyways.. ave to arrange for a meeting with the rest of the OCs.. haha, wish the rest can see us now.. sweet success is finally within our reach.. hope everything works out for the best.. but at the same time, i am prepared for the very worst..